( she feels responsible, in a way that hasn't weighed on her in a long time. laura has done a lot of work to stop this kind of line of thought, to allow herself to accept that she isn't responsible for every loss she bears witness to, any mistake that happens in the broader circles around her. she's put a lot of work into keeping herself accountable for the things that are in her control, and recognising the things that aren't.

logan's death wasn't her responsibility. she couldn't have stopped it, not the last time and not now. but the guilt still sits heavy on her chest all the same. all that work.

she doesn't say 'i should have been here' but she expects that he feels her protest weighing between them all the same. for all his speech about letting go sounds nice, if she was the one dragged under the water she expects they would be having a similar conversation. that would be preferable, honestly. she's probably better at giving out comfort than receiving it. )

I thought...that the time we had here was all I was going to get.

( she says finally, carefully, because she can't talk about how hard this city is any more. logan's right, he knows, and he knows why it's hard for laura, and he probably knows better than her that death doesn't get any easier just because it's not permanent. she doesn't want people to be kind and careful with her anymore, it's too much. 

her expression stays just as careful a construct as ever, but her jaw flexes as she jabs a finger towards his chest. )

You should have been more careful. You talk to me about being smart, what about you?