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why

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because ours is expiring soon
because I'd like it if it didn't

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you'd get in less trouble

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I don't care about that

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you'd get your room back.

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I don't mind sharing with Foley

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if you want the place to yourselves
that's okay too.

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I want you with us

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i don't think you're going to figure out what you two are if i'm in the room next door.

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I already know what Josh and I are
What I'm trying to figure out is what you and I are

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i don't know what you want.

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I want you

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that can mean a lot of things.

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It can
but you know what I mean
My feelings for you haven't changed

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( the replies are dragging out longer and longer each time, the more thought she has to put into them. )

i know about your feelings. that's not what i'm asking.

i want to know what you want, from me, specifically. without having to read between the lines.

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I want you to stick around even when shit gets hard
I want you to be here with me
I want you to ask me for help when you think you might need it
I want you to trust that I won't take advantage of you
I want to be able to talk to you without being afraid you're going to jump out a window
I want to know that I can depend on you to talk to me when you think you need to, about anything. And that you know I'll do the same
I want to be with you, not just as friends who do shit because otherwise a city might fuck us over but as partners

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i don't think you're going to take advantage of me.

( laura doesn't like to send messages until she's sure of what it is she wants to say, which normally just results in long delays when things are getting complex, but today it seems all she's doing is popping up bouncing typing bubbles as she rewrites her responses, over and over. )

do you want a partnership. teammates. or do you want ( jesus christ it's not that hard ) a relationship.

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I want a relationship

( it's significantly easier when you already know the words and also. refuse to listen to the little voice that tells you to shut the fuck up and leave it. )

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( well that's exactly as clear as she wanted. )

okay.

( laura is--aware though, that it's her communication skills that cause problems significantly more than it is julian's. there's something about weak links lingering still, but she's not going down that road again. at least, not now. now she's just going to...try to be a little clearer, herself. )

i want that too.

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I feel like this probably doesn't need to be added on but:
I want a relationship with Foley also

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i thought you were with him already.

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not officially

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( see, is it really any wonder that laura's so confused )

you should be. officially.

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So should we

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yes.

i want that with josh too, i think.